dear diary,
Stubbornness is something you need to cure yourself of. As much
as I want to help, my level of hotheadedness isn't as hard as
yours. It doesn't really affect my life if you stay the way you
are. I've just to tolerate for a few months while resisting to
whack you with a baseball bat. If you behave well enough, I'll let
you off the hooks after the O's. I want you to feel even more fear
than you've ever been. The feeling of being hunted down like a
rabbit. Drowning yourself in your worst nightmares to a coma. Get
paranoid with your own delusional world of lies. The Urge to kill
Yourself. See the sudden hike of people talking behind your back?
Don't you find it weird that it all happened after cutting off ties
with me? You can go all "You bastard. Just because we're not
friends anymore, it doesn't give you the reason to go all out on me
and invite people to join you." Wrong inference. I've been
persuading people to not do so when I was on your side. You simply
had to destroy that wall of yours and give in to your enemies.
There is no one to protect your stand now anymore. Didn't say warn
you of where you were heading. Your friends were true to you, but
just like you, they had a limit to where they can stand your
idiocy. What you feared had came true, the fear of losing your
friends. Fun isn't it? Yeah sure, you can always retaliate with
saying that we should look and reflect at ourselves before looking
at others. I suggest you reflect your heart even more because
predictably, it ain't enough. You can cry all you like, going to
your currently closest friends for comfort but it won't change the
fact about how we think about you. I think we're pretty nice to
want to tell you about it soon, hoping you'll change and continue
to be our friends instead of taking it the other way round. You
know who you are, lil Jess. I don't really care if you're going to
type a post about on how stupid I am or what a Jerk I've been. I
don't really mind. You should know by now that I'm bound to my
honesty and opinions. You can choose to accept it or ignore it.
with lust, Daisuke
